Saturday, August 10, 2013

I am a Loser

Okay, so I have realized that I am not good at all at keeping up with a blog, but here goes nothing.  The last time I blogged was over a year ago so to catch you up, I now live in Colorado and I still work at OfficeMax.  I am no longer going to school, but simply working, pursuing God through ministry and seeking out his will and timing for my life. Enough on the "me" update, here is how God has been working in my life:
I was talking with a friend the other day about how lately I feel like such a loser.  I mean people ask me all the time, "What are you studying?" "Where do you go to school?" "Where do you work?" "What are your plans for the future?" To all these questions I kind of just put my head down in shame and honestly answer that I am not going to school right now, I work a part-time job as an associate at OfficeMax, and my future is very uncertain aside from the fact that I want to follow God wherever He leads.  I can't help but notice the look of disappointment or confusion from the person who asked me these questions.  It seems crazy that someone like me wouldn't be pursuing an education or career or doing something to advance myself towards "The American Dream."  The truth is sometimes I even disappoint and confuse myself.  Why does it feel like I am at a stand-still in my life and nothing seems to be moving forward?  To be honest, I can't even answer that question, but somehow I feel like I am where God needs me to be.
There is a passage I came across a couple of days ago that has really given me comfort in all of this, so here it is:
"For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God." 1Corinthians 1:26-29
This verse has encouraged me that God uses the nobodies of this world to bring himself glory.  I have been praying this verse over my life and asking God to use me.  When the world may see my life on paper and not be impressed God sees me as someone with great potential to do his will.  So if you are like me and feeling like a loser, be reminded that you are exactly where you need to be for God to glorify himself through your life.  God is in the business of taking nobodies, giving them his strength and ability, and turning them into somebodies!